The calm before the unknown

I know how the saying goes, but I don't really know whats coming next and I don't want to jinx it.

I got a job now, and since I was given some time off, I decided to finish some paperwork at University and get cross off as many tasks from my to-do list as possible, I came across some friends, got a hit of nostalgia and walked more than expected, but I am hopeful of whatā€™s to come.

Thereā€™s this Venn diagram where there are things you love to do, things you know how to do, and things that pay well. As of know, I am qualified to do it, and Iā€™ll get good pay, but I am still not sure if Iā€™ll love it.

I feel like itā€™ll be one of those jobs when Iā€™ll just click and type away for 8 hours with lunch in between. I am not complaining, I donā€™t expect anything less at the moment and I think I might even end up enjoying it.

However, thatā€™s a very similar situation to my internship, except that in that case the only good thing was getting a good payā€”for an intern. I managed to survive 6 months like that, and I didnā€™t really hate it, so maybe Iā€™ll be fine if I can handle the pressureā€”something I didnā€™t really suffer from during my internship because I was just a subordinate and responsibilities didnā€™t ultimately fall on me.

Regardless, as I said, I got a couple days off, and today is Mexican Revolution day, so yet another day off. I decided to go to school and fix some paperwork I had procrastinated a whole year to complete. Iā€™m talking about validating the time of social service I did a while ago. It was so simple I am actually really annoyed at myself for not doing it sooner, alas, it is finished.

I really got hit by nostalgia when I went to my campus, it had been a while since Iā€™ve visited it during the morning, everything was pretty much the same, students messing around, playing UNO, having lunch. Saying hi to some friends I saw passing by, talking about how weā€™ve been after months without seeing each otherā€”it was a good time.

After that I went ahead and talked to my internship coordinator, I hadnā€™t told her about my new job and I was unsure about what she would say about it. Thankfully she was very happy and gave me some advice about whatā€™s next.

I also walked quite a bit too, since I needed to go to an ATM to pay for the certificate I was going to get, and they only accepted ATM tickets as proof for some reason. It was not that far, a kilometer or so. I actually followed a path similar to the one I used to take to go homeā€”when I lived closer to my campus. I came across houses and parks that were the same, but a little different, so many memories happening walking downstreet with friends and schoolmates. I almost cried.

After everything was done, now I only have to deal with the paperwork to validate the hours of internship I did, as well as a project that I should have finished last year tooā€”oops. It shouldnā€™t be very hard to do, thankfully. I must have it done as soon as possible, and start the longer process of getting my degree and finally be done with this period of my life.

I still struggle to process everything. To think that I am closer to (hopefully) forming my own family, than I am to being a kid myself, and despite it all, I still donā€™t imagine myself as a salary man working to provide for my household and stuff. Adulthood is nothing like I expected it to be. I want to go back to what is comfortable, but I want to see whatā€™s next and test new things too. So, what will it be?

This is day 81 of #100DaysToOffload

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