I wanna do it but then I don't

It’s always fun when you get inspired by some post and then you see another one talking about pretty much the same thing.

Earlier today as I checked my RSS reader I read this update from Steve, who wrote:

Last week I wrote about the two-sentence journal method, which I was generally optimistic about using.

I actually shared a link to this “two-sentence” journaling method in my last weeknotes, so that’s fun. Anyway, the next paragraph starts with:

Well…I really haven’t been using it.

So, I think, that’s literally me!

Then on the fediverse I saw another post from Matt about how buying a Steam Deck didn’t pay off for him, because he doesn’t even play videogames much, and he says:

I could sit here, and tell y’all that I’m going to be different this time. I’m going to sit this morning and play a bit before I have to get to work. But we all know that would be a big fat lie. Oh, maybe I’ll stick to that goal for a little while, but eventually, my attention will turn elsewhere, and the Steamdeck will go back into its case. Then the cycle will continue, as it has forever.

Once again, that’s literally me!

Committment is kind of difficult. Even for something that should be easy like writing two sentences in a journal, or something that should be fun, like actually playing the videogames you have.

I’ve written a few posts about some of the issues I’ve been dealing with—which in the grand scheme of things aren’t really a big deal, I guess—such as:

• trying to buy less games—something I’ve failed at spectacularly.
• going to the gym more often—with really mixed and unpredictable results, and
• eating less snacks—which hasn’t really worked out, as I’ve barely lowered my intake.

Now, some of it is no big deal, I haven’t practiced cursive writing in a couple days, I haven’t finished Silksong yet and it’s still waiting for me.

And sometimes I just can’t believe I keep digging myself deeper, I literally just got Super Mario Galaxy 1+2 and Suikoden I+II Remastered for some reason. Why are there so many great games coming soon???

I can say all I want, it doesn’t matter until I take action. I’ll keep trying even if I fail again, and maybe, eventually, it’ll stick. Or maybe I should stop considering all this a problem and just embrace the chaos.

But no, I refuse, I know I’m doing some things wrong, and I’ll keep on hitting my head against the wall until something clicks.

Clicks buy on the Dragon Quest I and II HD-2D Remastered for Switch.